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If meth has affected you or someone you care about, speak up. Share a message about what you’ve lost or what you’ve learned. You might just save someone from going down an ugly road.
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I did it because I wanted to see what all the fuss was about. Why my mom chose it over me. Why my husband chose it over me. And I guess I wanted to have something in common with him. Maybe we’d get along better… Well it took everything I loved. I thought I had it under control. I could quit anytime I wanted. The fact I used “only” once a week and never used more than a day meant I had it under control. I was wrong. So very wrong. Even dumber I wanted to try shooting up to be like everyone else.. that’s when everything went downhill. A year and a half later I’m still dealing with trying to stay clean. Its like hell on earth.
I had tried meth a couple times at age 24 but my oldest beother’s suicide started my addiction. I was suffering from depression already and was seeing a counselor but I still needed to numb the pain. Like anyone else, I didn’t jump right into heavy use, it grew over time. It started as monthly use then weekly, then daily. I used with my former best friend. After watching her go from user to full blown addict, I quit. I had used heavily for 3 years. I realized how bad she needed to quit but refused and I made the choice right then and there. I was clean 6 months before my grandma passed. I had my first and only relapse. I tried to stay friends with her after I quit, but she was so far gone. I knew she’d never slow down, let alone stop using and I had to put myself before her. I went to drug classes for years before starting my own. I did that for two years before my health started suffering. I’ve been upfront and honest with my kids on why I used and why they shouldn’t ever do it but I’ve been clean for over 8 1/2 years now.
I’ve seen this addiction firsthand. It usually starts as a solution to a problem, but it ends up creating way more problems. Family and friends get pushed away because of the addicted person’s selfish behavior. You start out thinking you can control the use of this drug but you can’t. It’s hard to quit – there’s a lot of relapse going on. It becomes a vicious cycle.