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I’m still a kid, and my dad uses and sells meth. It has turned him into someone he isn’t and it’s scary. He got caught and now spends every weekend in jail and is on probation. I never talk to him anymore because he PROMISED he would stop. He continuously lies to me and tries to tear me down. He wasn’t like this before. Please don’t do meth, if not for you, think about your family and friends.
I wrote this poem In October 2018 after using on and off for a year. Its March 2019 and I’m still using. Its unreal. I tell anyone who hasnt tried it, to STAY AWAY. IT IS EVIL. I beg you….stay away from Meth.
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This month, March 2019, I celebrate 6 years of sobriety. Recovery is possible but nobody can help you take that first step.
When you are in school you hear all those drug free talks. You never think you’ll do drugs! You truly believe you will be drug free. I was a cheerleader, on the dance team, in band, student council, was loved by my family and did pretty well in school. I would say I had a good life. I did become pregnant at 16. At that point I did have alot of people start to talk down on me. I pushed through. I was vulnerable.
I met someone who accepted me and my son. What changed was the person I decided to hang out with. At first he was good to me but then things changed. He slowly started to belittle me and put me down. I let it because others had.
Well my senior year was the first time I tried a strong drug. I tried night lights (what use to be a legal form of ecstasy) at a party with my than boyfriend. That feeling was great! Not long after that. The words he used against me turned to violence. I thought back to that amazing feeling I felt on night lights. I felt so low about myself that I wanted to feel great again!
So in July 2011 the random uses continued. Off an on till about November. I wasn’t constantly doing drugs every day. It was several times a month though. I felt guilty because I knew it was wrong. Yet it continued. I was using at night and would get physically beat by my boyfriend when my son was away or sleeping. I didn’t feel it was effecting him. I should of known better. After December I only drank occasionally throughout 2012.
In January 2013 my life forever changed. He introduced me to Meth. I thought just once couldn’t hurt. I was so wrong! The feeling Meth gives you is incredible! It makes you feel beautiful, confident and like anything is possible!
I used meth from January-March 2013. In 2 months my life completely turned upside down! I was missing school. I lost track of time. I felt I was functioning fine as a parent. I potty trained my son taught him his abcs but looking back no parent can! That March I lost my grandpa. I regret most not saying goodbye. He was an amazing man. A man I respected and looked up to. How did I repay him, I showed up at the funeral high. It’s been almost 6 years and I still haven’t forgiven myself for that.
I remember a few weeks after that waking up one day wondering who I was and hating the life I had! Hating the person I became and the mother I was. I wanted to change. I wanted out. I didn’t want to live how I was living anymore! That was March 24, 2013. That was the day I choose to become sober. I called my dad and told him everything! We made plans for me to move in with him to help me stay on track.
The next day Child Protective Services got involved. I lost temporary custody of my son. I took the steps needed and got him back within two months. I have never looked back! Addiction is hard but recovery is possible!